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Originally posted 10/jun/2022 but date was changed for the sake of continuity (?) in my dreamlog..
CONTENT WARNING. There's a mention of rape/child sexual assault on the very (first) dream.
You can skip it because its unrelated to the rest of dreams in this blog
on that day, when I woke up I got to remember about 4 of the dreams when I went to sleep. because that's a funny thing to happen, I tried writing it down on my notes app
first dream
this dream involved me and the older cousin that sexually assaulted me twice/tried to rape me when i was 9-10 years old. i think we were either on the street outside his house late at night, or he was in the hallway Infront of the door of my old room (where he tried to sexually assault me both times when he thought i was asleep) and for some reason i was sleeping on my old bed that does not exist there anymore. it's been a long time since I had this dream (almost an entire calendar year) and even on the attempt I made at posting this that same day, I didn't write it along the others because it's a lot, (even if the site i posted it on has good warning/spoiler hiding systems, but, whatever. and i was literally posting whatever on that website anyway). I think he kept trying to get awfully close to me and I kept angrily yelling him to fuck off and to get away from me, but he was like ignoring him and i couldn't look at him in the face so i don't remember his reaction. I think I even hit him in my anger, but it's hard to really remember..
second dream
my second dream was about an elderly white couple taking my family in (??) and i had no idea how this even went down bc i was apparently sent to the hospital for a few days bc of my period cramps?? or something. anyways suddenly we were all living at a big electronic store (like best buy) bc the elderly couple owned one and they also built their house connected to their store and the entrance was like one of the "employees only" doors (??) or something? The house was weird in like many ways (aside from having a best buy attached to it), like the walls, floor and furniture were all carved out of the same big tree (???), but then the store was completely normal and modern bestbuy??? also for some reason me and my brother had a different teacher in this one class and his teacher had assigned my brother to like draw a fuckton of drawings in a tiny book? and they were so fucking good??? like he only did them with pencil and charcoal and they also were related to like halloween? he drew a lot of somewhat realistic and spooky werevolves ... my brother isnt that even that good of an artist irl so I was awfully jealous. Anyways after me making that discovery for some reason the elderly couple left everything behind (they didnt die i think they just fled the country?) and me and my family were still at the best buy knockoff and we all knew they were Gone Gone so my mom was like "welp. since they are never coming back we might as well make the most out of this (steal everything here and sell it off)" but before we could even grab anything the police started arriving (most likely bc the elderly couple were involved in something sketchy and weird and illegal) and they saw me trying to move something and i was like "OH shit i am going to get fucking arrested (because they might think we helped the elderly couple in their weird plans)" and i think i almost got arrested before i woke up??? . My mom told me (in the dream) that since she was very stressed (apparently both my older sister and her had somehow injured themselves while i was away at the hospital?) and the elderly couple saw that my parents were in a vulnerable state and they like took advantage of my parents and they just like adopted my entire family and made them move in to their weird best buy-house hybrid (??). for what purpose exactly? i dont know. but i know it was def something Illegal you know. i am NOT being mean to an innocent pair of old ppl they were Weird in an unsettling way that was kind of dangerous even in the one time i saw them in my dream
third dream
the third dream was about me suddenly feeling an URGE to illegally download several (several) sonic anime series (implying there were multiple of them in my dream) on my hard drive and one of them was uploaded in its Entirety to youtube and the entire length was like 5 days long and a few more hours. and then i felt the urge to look at some sonic fanart (i am not even a sonic fan irl) but then a guy appeared in my mother's weird mix between her current and old bedroom and like i couldnt look at google images with behind because you know how google images is with characters of child media ... and then he started mansplaining fandom to me??? for no other fucking reason????
fourth dream
the fourth one was about me and my mom on some sort of blue floor in a daycare (??) apparently eating gummy bears on like, a bunch of crystal dinnerware on the ground??? (like the fancy crystal ones they put on candy bars during parties) and some of the gummy bears were ALIVE? like they couldn't speak but they could move and they were trying to build a castle (with gummy blocks??? that i have no idea were they came from???) but i just kept grabbing a huge chunk of them and stuffing them in my mouth and i also kept eating their castle because i didnt want them building a castle but suddenly a bunch of actual cockroaches started appearing in one of the containers with gummy bears and bc i was trying to move them away from the rest of gummy bears i accidentally squished one and my finger felt completely disgusting and nasty but the cockroaches kept appearing. and then i woke up