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i don't know exactly how old i was when i had this dream, but I'm pretty sure it was before i turned 10 but i have no tangible way to verify it
a little bit of Explanations before we go into the dream:
when i was a kid, the Chucky movies used to mortify me in a way nothing else could. be it because my bedroom i shared with my twin brother had a big container full of toys in the corner, or because my toys meant a lot to me as a child or because his animatronic freaky weirdo face just weirded me out as a 6 year old... Everytime one of these Chucky movies came on TV, i would have to immediately leave the room and go do something else because they scared me so fucking bad. it's a little funny looking back
from a very young age, i knew my mom was abusive towards me (even though i didn't have the words for it) and i understood, on some level, that what she was doing to me was wrong. i won't get too much into it in this entry, i might write about it sometime in the future
i don't really remember the beginning, but my dream was about Chucky managing to find a way to live in my house, and the rest of my toys were also alive? i had also watched toy store for the first time around that time, so it probably contributed to the contents in the dream
so basically, my dream was actually about chucky turning all my toys against me. as in, he found a way to befriend all of my toys behind my back and convince them he was just a normal regular non-serial killer toy.......... and one day my toys and him found a way to 'build' (it was just maybe standing on a few notebooks and doing the court crowd formation) a make-believe court where Chucky basically put me on blast for not liking him, even though he was a serial killer. something along the lines of "well you know it like hurts me that you act this way towards me when I've given you no reason for you to act this way towards me blah blah" or something like that, in front of all my toys who were all nodding along and reprimanding me for basically not playing with Chucky because he scared the shit out of me bc of the movies. it was my old childhood bedroom and this also happened during the time of the day where the afternoon starts becoming evening so the room was really blue and starting to get really dark, so the atmosphere was really creepy... and i had to give in to "forgiving" Chucky for the sake of my toys. by the end of my "trial" i was questioning myself if i was justified in holding these grudges and fears against Chucky when he hadn't given me a reason to really fear him.. at least not directly
so this dream i had was basically about chucky gaslighting me and turning my toys against me. absolutely insane thing for a 5-10 year to dream about.
the craziest thing, though, is that even back then i knew after waking up that someday, someway i would end up in a situation like that with my mother. and i think that's why, even after +9 years, it has stuck with me and why i can remember certain things semi-well even after all those years. that's my load-bearing traumatic childhood dream i guess
20/06/2025